About this blog...

On this blog you will find the rambling thoughts and images a boy like me finds on the web. It is responses to my dilemma and experience. It's not rude or crude or stereotypical. Just me, just trying to be free, just learning to be myself...

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

It's True

It's true!

It's true, they say;
I heard it once.
A week, a day;
or was it months?
I know, I learned;
as if by chance.
The myth, the truth;
I learned to dance.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

That Look


That look, you gave, it drove through me..
a knife, a blade, eternity.
That moment touched my very soul, 
I shall remember until I'm old. 
For once I saw the fire within, 
I knew that I would be with him.

Sunday, October 2, 2011


Suddenly... I didn't dare, 
I took a chance, I did not care, 
I took a chance to share 
my love with you. 
And just as sudden, 
it shocks me still, 
there you were, it was a thrill, 
together we, as always, 
ever true.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Arthur Sales

You begin for me, as from a dream, 
a sight to behold, a sight unseen. 
Your beauty drives out a cold and cloudy day. 
The birds do sing, as light you bring, 
my heart does ring to everything. 
Your presence brings sunshine out to play.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

True Beauty

True beauty 
not hard to find.  
It's more about 
state of mind. 
It's how 
you see 
what you mean 
to me. 

True beauty 
the way 
I feel. 
I look 
at you 
and I 
feel real. 

Your smile 
it warms 
my cold 
and sultry 

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Bone

Softly spoken, warm to touch, 
feather light, feel my brush. 
Gently takes your hand and lifts it up.
Draws you near to feel you breathe, 
watches as your chest does heave, 
feels the quickened pulse of life heat up.

Breathes your scent and feels your glow,
presses tight so you will know, 
here I am to share to life with you. 
Stares intent into your soul, 
Shed our youth as we grow old. 
The only things that matter is me and you.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The Internet Clown

You can't fool me, you total creep. 
Behind that mask, I hear you speak. 
You wait and play the game you always play. 

You scare me not, for I am far, 
beyond your reach, so strange, bizarre! 
I only wonder why you even stay.

My life's moved on, I have such fun.
Your stupid games, you haven't won. 
So sad an lonely do you dwell within. 

You can not understand my life, 
to be so happy and without strife. 
I spare my pity and leave you to your sin.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011


I stand before you, undefined.
Yet to make up my own mind.
All I know is what I think and feel.
Don't push me in a labelled box.
Don't tie me down with chains and locks.
Just give me time to find what is real. 

Sunday, July 24, 2011


The beauty within,
is not about sin,
it's finding what 
matters most.
For what we shall find, 
shall prove in time,
to be the love 
we hold so close.

Saturday, July 23, 2011









Wednesday, July 20, 2011

The Stare

Desensitized and mystified, 
          death defied by suicide, 
                    memerized by what he sees.

Horrified and immortalized, 
          rectified by truth... besides, 
                    what else can there be?

Take a look, a lasting look, 
take a picture, write a book, 
what is it that you see?
Behind my stare I lay quite bare, 
I never thought I'd ever care, 
behind this stare, my veneer... 
is me...      see?

Sunday, July 17, 2011



Sometimes it's time to come, 
sometimes it's time to go.
Sometimes it's time to leave, 
before we get to know;
If what we have in common,
is only just for show.
Or if we have something more. 
We will never know.


Saturday, July 16, 2011

After the rain

After the rain and the pain is gone
life renews and life goes on.
The sun takes a breath 
and starts to climb the sky.
After the last shadow retreats
life returns to its steady beat. 
The sun returns 
to warm the coldest day.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Forever Lovers

 The earth it birthed me once again.
The rain ran through my mortal vein.
The wind, it blew, it's breath on me.
The sun, it warmed, my inner being.
And slowly as I did start to rise, 
you came behind and to my surprise, 
you touched my soul with your fiery eyes, 
and we became two, forever tied.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Lover Boy

Tell me what? Don't walk away.
I will fight you, any day.
Push me hard and I will push you back.

You say what? Just wait for me. 
I will beat you, can't you see.
I won't take any kind of smack.

I'm not scared, is what I am.
Come and get some, I'm your man.
I will wipe your smile, that's for sure.

So if you want a piece of me, 
I will be your destiny.
And I will love you twice and ever more.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011


I once did dream of summer skies, as I looked into your smiling eyes, 
but there I saw to my surprise, the warmth of your love and no disguise.
I see in your face every thought you think, as into your arms my heart does sink. 
I trust you more than I trust myself. I love you without exception.

And if by chance I touch your hand, my soul does lift and leave this land, 
and heaven sent it soars above, as I explore our eternal love. 
Were we by chance not meant to be? I can't imagine love you see,
with anyone else, but you and me. I love you without exception.


Party in my Pants

P@RTY in my P@NTS

There's a party in my pants, my pants, my pants.
I just wanna start romance, romance, romance.
With a party in my pants, my pants, my pants.
If I was given half a chance, a chance, a chance.

Let's go party in my pants, my pants, my pants.
C'mon baby let's just dance, a dance, a dance.
As I take off my aching pants, my pants, my pants.
I will pierce you with my lance, my lance, my lance.

There's a party in my pants, my pants, my pants.
I just wanna start romance, romance, romance.
With a party in my pants, my pants, my pants.
If I was given half a chance!!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

A cloud drifted slowly...

A cloud drifted slowly
across the high noon sky. 
A bird tweeted sweetly 
at you and at I. 
The sun it did smile
as we two hand in hand, 
crossed the ocean laughing 
and settled on the land. 
Feet settled slowly,
reality did bite. 
If that was fun
just think...
what we might do tonight.

Sunday, June 19, 2011


I believe in summer days, 
in puppy dogs with wagging tales. 
I believe the sun will rise, 
my love will grow, you'll be surprised. 

I believe in love at first sight, 
in holding hope, throughout the night. 
I believe that you and I, 
will be as one, 'til the day we die. 

I don't believe in papal lore, 
in ancient myths and hate or war. 
If God exists, and he just might, 
then he will love, what is right. 

He made me as I really am, 
to be myself, to be a man. 
To love with all my energy
To love a boy, to be just me.

Friday, June 17, 2011

My Dear

It's winter now, I miss the beach. The surf, the sand, beyond my reach. 
I sit and stare, through windows bare and wait for sunny days. 
I miss the warmth upon my skin, the ocean depths I love to swim, 
I miss the boys I share my world within. 
But most of all I miss his smile, I miss him more than once in a while. 
I only have my memories to share. 
But I know he is coming home, and in my arms he'll never roam. 
I miss the sand, I miss his smile, 
my dear.


Jacob Purvis, I think I'm in lust with you...

I think I'm in lust with you. 
I just want to dance. 

I think I'll make love to you. 
Just take off my pants. 

I will take you in the night, 
given half a chance. 

Just say yes, then undress, 
time to start romance.

You and me will always be, 
pumping through the night. 

You know we were meant to be, 
isn't this just right? 

Take my hand and hold me close,  
squeeze and hug me tight. 

Then when its time to start again, 
we'll give it all our might. 

I think I'm in lust with you. 
I just want to dance. 

I think I'll make love to you. 
Just take off my pants.

Monday, June 13, 2011

See me

The sun, it dawns, upon the day. 
I come to you, it's time to play. 
When you awake, what do you see? 
For you I want, to just see me.

Monday, June 6, 2011


The wind
it blew
silken sails. 
The sea
it raged 
a gale. 

The boat
that brought
my destiny.
The sun
that lit
a path 
to me.

I saw
that look
your eyes. 
Your lips
held back
my surprise.
I took
your hands
and I
just cried.
This day
we were
in love.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Life Undone

Traumatised and
Once despised,
Never cries,
never tries,

Tried disguise,
pretty eyes,
still chastised,
then deprived.
Once surprised,
death defied,
he's gone.

Bounced right back,
kept on track,
twisted wrack,
rebounded smack.
Fight right back,
quick come back,
he won.

Life is not
a pretty game,
never won,
never tame.
Make the most,
drop the ghost,
have fun.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Learn to Skate!

It's not too late, 
to learn to skate. 
So try it if you dare. 
To roll so fast, 
life's a blast, 
flying through the air. 
Then there's that sound, 
you hit the ground, 
the rolling thunder balls. 
For when I skate, 
I inflate, 
I'm suddenly 10 feet all.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Painted Kisses

I painted you in rainbows. 
I even drew your heart. 
I stole a kiss, half way through. 
Your lips did slightly part.

I felt the knowing feeling, 
the lusting of the touch. 
I only hope that you were warned, 
that I will kiss you much.


Saturday, May 7, 2011


In the morning, 
when I awake, 
I think of you, 
until its late. 
I think of you 
until I go 
to bed. 

And when I dream,
I dream of you. 
The only thing,
I think to do.
The only thoughts 
that enter,
in my head. 

I trace your lips, 
with finger tips, 
I brush your hair 
with heavens care. 
My breath upon 
your naked neck,
I kiss your face.

I only dream, 
to be awake, 
and ease the pain, 
reduce the ache, 
until I once 
your embrace.



In and out, and all throughout, 
our inner thoughts do dwelve.
Side by side, we slip and slide, 
we come to know ourselves. 
I share my love, I give my self, 
until the day I die.
I think of you, thinking of me, 
I see me in your eyes. 
We two as one, never undone, 
our hearts do beat and race.
Barriers down, our souls do drown, 
in each sticky embrace. 

Saturday, April 30, 2011


There is an angel watching over me;
he has been there for eternity;
he watches all and only dares to care. 
He is my light with sympathy;
he frees my mind with empathy;
the love he feels he only seeks to share. 
One day I will drift back to him;
the future as it's always been;
My soul restored and time to be as one.
Until that day he waits for me;
he lets me live completely free; 
But never again will leave our love undone. 


Thursday, April 28, 2011


Image not my dog but similar
What is life, when death lives on?
Our daily drudge, goes on and on.
We take for granted each day we see.
I took for granted you and me. 
And now you've gone, my heart has burst. 
To think of you, it only hurts. 
I can't believe, that full of life. 
It ended so soon, with so much strife.
If I had been there, at the end. 
Your broken life, I could have mend. 
I blame myself, you've gone away.
I hate my life. I hate that day.
But I'll think of you, with only love. 
Until we join, in lands above. 
So run and play, my boyhood friend. 
We'll be together, in the end.

Mitch Hewer ~ Soccerboy

Click on images to enlarge

Monday, April 25, 2011

In silver light, their masks delight, they hide behind their veil. 
They spin such lucid tales, of lust they do avail. 
They compliment and flirt and fly to sow the seeds of desire, 
but quickly do their long spun tales drift unto the mire. 

So happy thoughts and caution taught, I explore this world of theirs. 
I now know how to hold it back, my inner-self not shared. 
But keep these imps at distance, and keep behind the line;
and we will see if love does hold given nothing more than time.


Friday, April 22, 2011

You Can Not Get To Know Me

You can not understand me. You can not get to know. 
You can not start to feel me. Unless you see the show.
It started in a far off place. My mind it drifted far. 
I left the dark behind me. I headed for a star. 

I spent my time there gazing, at all the pretty lights. 
I tried to think of happy thoughts, as he beat me through the night.
And when the sun returned, I found myself alone. 
I left the stars behind me and I returned to home. 

So if you come to see me, and if I'm not quite there. 
It's because I am in heaven, hiding from my fear.


Thursday, April 21, 2011

Don't be chicken

Hey you, ya you.. come over here, I wanna show you something..D


If I took a cup of perfect 
and added a touch of spice. 
If measured out some meanness 
and just a dash of nice. 
If I took a pinch of shyness 
and a pound of lust or three. 
Would you spend a day just teasing 
then stay for eternity?


Friday, April 15, 2011


Am I perfect?
Or good enough?
Like me this way?
Like it rough?

Want me naked?
Within your web?
Push me down, 
upon the bed. 

Keep me kicking 
round the house. 
Treat me badly, 
I'll be a mouse. 

But do ignore 
and fear my rage. 
I will erupt, 
this mortal cage.


Thursday, April 14, 2011

Rasmus Ledin - my straight boyfriend
Beauty is a stolen look, 
a backward glance, 
a glimpse I took. 

Love is free, 
upon the air. 
As if by chance,
I would dare. 

I walked behind 
and came so close. 
A gentle brush, 
my overdose. 

Heaven scent, 
my thoughts to me. 
To be so close, 
your energy. 

Friction builds, 
I want to touch. 
Your very presence, 
I love so much. 

You share my sphere, 
my wonder world. 
If you were boy, 
and I was girl. 

I know that we 
would be as one. 
But as we are, 
our love undone. 

But I can dream 
of you instead. 
My straight boyfriend, 
in my bed.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My lover...

My lover...

take my hand
of wet
surf sand
and hold
me tight
at last.

Keep a grip
don't let me slip
firm within
your grasp.

Keep me safe
from all
that try. 
Keep me
close to you.

Be my shield
and be my world
and I'll
be that
to you.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The Wind

If I could dance, 
if I could sing, 
I would take flight, 
upon the wind.

I would soar high, 
unto the sky, 
and there I'd stay, 
with you in mind. 

If I could be 
with you today, 
I would take chance 
and heaven pray. 

For you to me 
are everything. 
As I take flight 
upon the wind.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Share Me

There is a part of ME that shines
It shines so bright, it is divine
Divine enough for all the world to see.

See the part of me beneath
Beneath the covers I retreat
Retreat and you will see what I bequeath. 

There is a part of me I dare
I dare because I really care
Care enough and you will come to share

Share the part of me to see
See me now and set me free
Free to love who I desire, I'm ME.