About this blog...

On this blog you will find the rambling thoughts and images a boy like me finds on the web. It is responses to my dilemma and experience. It's not rude or crude or stereotypical. Just me, just trying to be free, just learning to be myself...

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Knowing me

Do I live for the sight of flesh, the shock of the obscene, the coldness of sex?

I would get a greater thrill out of sitting on a bench on a warm summers day, smelling wildflowers, feeling the heat of the sun, having  a bee land on the back of my hand and then depart, watching a butterfly float overhead against the rolling summer clouds and feeling the breath of my lover as he took my land and laid it in his lap.

Knowing life, knowing love and sharing happiness.

Know me.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


Drifts wide, slides back, sudden sweep, intense black. 
Slides in, gets wet, feels firm, in-depth.
Mind bright, daylight, open eyes, sky wide.
Throttle on, firm grip, sudden swerve, let slip.
Slows down, sudden ease, raging wind, firm breeze.
Sunlight, sudden bright, oncoming flash, good night.

Daily Motion

I set up a DailyMotion account. I may use it to host videos that YouTube will not allow.

YAY! Nick Lane is back on YouTube. Find www.youtube.com/user/iheartnicklane and add and subscribe him. He makes awesome videos and he gets a lot of haters and he needs our support. He is an awesome guy! (PS Nick I have posted this in your honour but will delete this off DailyMotion if you don't want me to have it there).

Friday, January 22, 2010

Life is a beach

I lay on the sand and feel the heat, the rays of the sun restore my beat.
A steady pulse, the roar of the surf, I am with my friends we laugh with mirth.
Time stands still and so do I, a heading wind, a gull flies by.
I smell the salt, I hear the trees, I feel the breath of the summer breeze.
Life goes on and so do I, I miss my love, I'd rather die.
To be without, I have no doubt, life would end, no amends.
He is my soul, my world to me, my roaring surf, my summer breeze.

What I do

Of course I did, it's what I do. I am a tease, I aim to please. 
I whip it out, I flash about; it's just a game, it comes to nowt. 
So run away and get to bed, and rest your little sleepy head, 
and dream of me and what I do, I whipped it out just for you. 

~ Marcus

Saturday, January 16, 2010

4 thoughts

If you are in doubt and are unsure, think of those you love the more.
Think of them and how they are, think of how you've come so far.
Trust them first and share your love, ignore their faults and rise above.
Come to terms with frailty, just believe in them you see.
For what you do is share your heart and be their friend and never part.
For being what you hold most true, you are to them only you.

An errant trough of afterthought, a cold sublime enmeshed.
A ridicule of strong distraught, a passing of the flesh.
A sudden jolt of thought rebirth, a bubbling of the mind.
Brings forth the frothsome after mirth, a palette so divine.

I put my mind at pillow's rest, to stand the evening still, a test,
For in my mind I showed my breast, blithe spirit of my loins to rest

And in my mind I have mispent, the time I lost without your rent,
I see him now as I saw him first and renewed my love as it did burst.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Old friends

Let go, move on, new friends, be one.
Now know, more sure, big smiles, love more.

We will miss you Alex, our friend.

~ Marcus

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Hello, I am sorry but my YouTube account has been suspended.

I got the following notice:

Due to a recent violation of the YouTube Community Guidelines, the use of interactive YouTube features has been disabled for your account until January 27, 2010. 

The guideline they said I broke was that my video of Tait Hughes Geijer contained nudity and was sexual in nature. You judge for yourself. Pictures Below:

Bonus prize for identifying the nude pictures!!

Thanks YouTube! Just ignore all the nudity and sexual acts on other channels but if there is any reason to think that the content may be gay you are at least very consistent in immediately suspending.

~ Marcus


Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Kerry Degman ~ Series 3

[Click on any image to ENLARGE].  See the video at www.youtube.com/thissuitsme 

Kerry Degman ~ Series 2

[Click on any image to ENLARGE].  See the video at www.youtube.com/thissuitsme.com