Suddenly

Suddenly... I didn't dare, 

I took a chance, I did not care, 

I took a chance to share 

my love with you. 

And just as sudden, 

it shocks me still, 

there you were, it was a thrill, 

together we, as always, 

ever true.

The Internet Clown

You can't fool me, you total creep. 

Behind that mask, I hear you speak. 

You wait and play the game you always play. 

You scare me not, for I am far, 

beyond your reach, so strange, bizarre! 

I only wonder why you even stay.

My life's moved on, I have such fun.

Your stupid games, you haven't won. 

So sad an lonely do you dwell within. 

You can not understand my life, 

to be so happy and without strife. 

I spare my pity and leave you to your sin.

The Stare

Desensitized and mystified, 

          death defied by suicide, 

                    memerized by what he sees.

Horrified and immortalized, 

          rectified by truth... besides, 

                    what else can there be?

Take a look, a lasting look, 

take a picture, write a book, 

what is it that you see?

Behind my stare I lay quite bare, 

I never thought I'd ever care, 

behind this stare, my veneer... 

is me...      see?

Sometimes

~

Sometimes it's time to come, 

sometimes it's time to go.

Sometimes it's time to leave, 

before we get to know;

If what we have in common,

is only just for show.

Or if we have something more. 

We will never know.

~

Forever Lovers

 The earth it birthed me once again.

The rain ran through my mortal vein.

The wind, it blew, it's breath on me.

The sun, it warmed, my inner being.

And slowly as I did start to rise, 

you came behind and to my surprise, 

you touched my soul with your fiery eyes, 

and we became two, forever tied.

Exception

I once did dream of summer skies, as I looked into your smiling eyes, 

but there I saw to my surprise, the warmth of your love and no disguise.

I see in your face every thought you think, as into your arms my heart does sink. 

I trust you more than I trust myself. I love you without exception.

And if by chance I touch your hand, my soul does lift and leave this land, 

and heaven sent it soars above, as I explore our eternal love. 

Were we by chance not meant to be? I can't imagine love you see,

with anyone else, but you and me. I love you without exception.

 

My lover...

My lover...

take my hand

of wet

surf sand

and hold

me tight

at last.

Keep a grip

don't let me slip

firm within

your grasp.

Keep me safe

from all

that try. 

Keep me

close to you.

Be my shield

and be my world

and I'll

be that

to you.

Defining Me

Am I straight? 

Am I gay?

Am I rough and tough?

Am I bent?

Up for rent?

How do I share my love?

Am I Bi?

Am I trans?

Am I weird or queer?

Do I love?

Do I trust?

Do I really care?

Why do you define me so?

Can't I be as one untold?

Can't I only just be me?

Let me live in peace instead.

Take who I want to my bed.

Let me be and let me be free.

I looked across a crowded room 

and saw my love that night.
My breath it stopped, my heart it popped, 

my chest became so tight.
I knew that I, had found at once, 

my other half indeed.
I only hoped, that they would dare, 

and fall in love with me.

And when I glanced, as if by chance, 

my mind went blank indeed.
My smile returned, my soul it yearned, 

my love sent back to me.
So from that day, come what may, 

I knew that love was true.
I knew the we, would forever be, 

you and me, 

we two.

I am your Golden BOY!

I am your Golden BOY!

I set my heart in wheaten field, my resolve drew me on. 

I fancied dreams of flight reborn, as I walked along. 

I could not dream of our embrace without your warming touch.
I have to say how much I miss, I love you oh so much. 

When you're away my thoughts do fly, I dream my golden boy.

Of happiness and warming smiles, my life so full of joy.

When we walk on, hand in hand the world does stop and stare. 

They think these boys, gone wild, are mad, I hope they lose that fear. 

For what scares them is love unbound and daring to be free. 

They see our love, they see us two, they see that we are free. 

Two boys in love, two boys in hand, two boys together as one.

Their looks of shame and wanton blame will never make undone. 

For what do we care of them, their sad and lonely lives. 

When all we see is rainbows, through our own loving eyes. 

So come back soon and be with me and share my bed again. 

And we will be, forever free, our love will bear no shame.

This week my other half is in Paris. Leading a life so different to my own reality that when he comes back to me it feels as if a dream. But he comes back to me, always to me. And I will always be here for him or go with him. For eternity. This blog is for him, to him, about me and him. I love you babe. Beijos

All I want

I look away when I feel you watching,
a dream state enters my being.
Your thoughts pervade my soul
and I feel exposed.
Your thoughts are seeking.
I know what you are thinking.

All I want to do is hide.
Not get close.
I feel so betrayed by my being.
Scared thoughts thrive,
I hope you don't believe I am here.
I'm not!
I'm running scared.

All I want is to say hello,
to chat once in a while,
to know
that I am not alone.
Please don't ask too much of me,
I can't handle this pressure
I'm not who you think I am,
I am small and unreal.

I write well,
talk smart
and lack the ability to do anything.
My inexperience drowns me.
I am just one boy,
being.
I am learning so much,
fearing so much more.
Give me space,
give me time,
I ask for no more.

All I want is understanding.

~ Marcus

(this poem reflects a change of style as I try and escape the web I have created on the internet. I had no idea it would be like this. With so many people needing so much from me. I don't understand. I'm just a boy, growing, wanting, to be a man.)

Boys Kissing

Kisses and hugs, 
a slide on the rug, 
a pat on the head 
and a smile. 
I'll rub your back, 
give you a smack, 
this may take 
quite a while. 

My hand on your knee, 
the other one free, 
a kiss on the ear 
is a start. 
A tickle, a rub, 
my hand, your glove. 
Never will we be apart. 

So..
Kisses and hugs, 
making love, 
you and I 
all the day. 
I rise to your love, 
like heaven above, 
to your touch 
I do pray.

Kisses and hugs, 
making love, 
you and I 
all the day. 
I rise and I rise, 
I sing my reprise, 
with your love
I am made.

A taste of me...

They all want a taste of me, 

even tho there's one of me. 

Taste by taste I really start to fear.

Slowly as they grab at me, 

piece by piece, I'm losing me. 

What they want they just so slightly tear.

I am just... only one, 

gently as I come undone, 

none of me, soon, will appear. 

Just say hello and do not tie, 

gently as you come on by, 

let me breathe or see me disappear.

Do not judge or criticise, 

hold your views behind your eyes, 

smile softly as you pass me by. 

Caught within this new found art, 

slowly taken, part by part, 

Now I know why others try and hide.

~

"I'm not a label, I'm just me, 

and I don't owe the world an explanation."

~

Bi Bi Ash

You all know that I like Ash Stymest. 

Most of all I like his sense of humour. 

So I was delighted to find these pictures below:  

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Okay the last picture is completely random, haha.

LABELS

Why do those who do not know, want to judge and label me so?
If you like this you must be that, if you like that you must be this.
I don't like one thing or another, for most people I could not bother;
but when I see, what I like, it doesn't matter, what's their type.

If they're a girl, that is nice, if they're a boy, sheer delight.
I end up liking more and more, the boys I simply do adore;
but not all, you're surprised to know, I am a fussy so and so.
The girls they leave me with a smile, as I dance with boys awhile.

And given that I meet my peers, obsessed with boys in underwear.
Bulging chests and hairy legs, pornography and sexy ass.
It's crass to me the things they see, I love to watch a smile or three,
for beauty is lost in ecstasy, a normal girl or boy for me.

I like, who I like, and no more, I am just me, I keep no score.

GAY? BI?

G'bye.

The Colour of Love

I looked in the distance and what did I see?
A sea of gray faces stared right back at me.
A dismal grey future of sweet paucity,
won't any gay stranger then come set me free?

I tasted the fruit and not of the vine,
an apple enticed me, sweet heaven divine.
It wasn't the love I felt would be mine,
I wondered, if my love, would grow, with time.

I then tried the wine, the juice of his lips,
the sway of his back, the shape of his hips.
I knew from that moment that love would be mine,
I dared try the grape and found love sublime.

If I had some crayons I'd colour the world,
I'd colour all boys and colour all girls.
They'd all look the same and they'd all dance for me,
I coloured all people and I set them free.