About this blog...

On this blog you will find the rambling thoughts and images a boy like me finds on the web. It is responses to my dilemma and experience. It's not rude or crude or stereotypical. Just me, just trying to be free, just learning to be myself...

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Recipe for Success

  1. Take one good looking boy.
  2. Wipe him clean and remove all past.
  3. Create a mood - longing is good.
  4. Photograph a lot, then more.
  5. Polish, shine, whiten.
  6. Remove all blemishes.
  7. Redefine and recreate.
  8. Crop, shorten, rotate...
  9. Soften, blur, recolour...
  10. Add some sparkle.
  11. Nice!
  12. POST


I flew above the ocean's roar,
saw pale gray skies and snow capped peaks.
The sun it peaked upon the day,
golden shafts of light it leaked.
It drew me south to where I knew,
new love awaited, a love I knew...

We drove through velvet rolling hills,
pastures fresh and skies so blue.
We came across a the hidden trove,
the place of birth and life renewed.
And there we spied in colour of sand,
standing proud, our wee man.

His eyes lit up will wild excite,
he strutted forth to show his might.
His proud wee chest was golden striped,
as we gazed forth, our tears we wiped.

His eyes of olive green won through,
his baby breath and silken coat,
and never once did we doubt or care,
he was reborn, the Kodiak Bear.

Sunday, June 27, 2010


When all is lost, no hope is left.
My heart is split, my soul bereft.
I seize upon a sudden thought,
the dog I loved, has been reborn.
He waits for me ... and I must find,
the one I love and not be blind.
I feel him near, he cries to me.
'I'm over here, can't you see?'
I search around but can not find,
I feel as if...I lose my mind.
But suddenly, he reappears,
that face, that soul
I love so dear.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

A Boy of Bronze

I saw a boy upon the shore,
of a surf-tormented, white-sand beach.

I saw the sea drip from his arm,
the salty sea beyond his reach.

He stood and gazed with eyes of bronze,
and watched the waves as they did beat.

His aching heart, although it longed,
could not make gain, with leaden feet.

He dreamed of ocean depths, beyond.
His aching limbs, set hard as rock.

His gaze transfixed, upon the sea,
his mind set free, the tide his clock.

Please understand

Don't expect 
too much of me, 
I'm a boy, 
can't you see? 
Don't take time 
or love from me, 
be my friend 
and let me be.
If you love 
the boy I am, 
shake me gently 
by the hand. 
Let me go and 
see me stand, 
on my own,
please understand.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Golden One

Forgive me for my time away, 
as mine own heart does tend to break. 
I need this time to mend my heart 
and rid myself of weary ache.

You know that I am never blue, 
I just need time to heal my soul. 
Remember times of joyful past, 
and remember days of old.

For part of me was torn away, 
the sun that shined upon my day. 
And now my thoughts do sullen pray, 
my baby rests at last.

And if you hear my prayers, my boy, 
remember me with thoughts of joy. 
And know that one day we will join, 
and awaken from the dark.

Our time together has come and gone, 
but know from me it won't be long, 
until the day we are as one, 
to shine again, my golden sun.

Friday, June 18, 2010

At last

He drew a gentle lasting breath,
my golden boy, I held his head.
A last long look, a stolen kiss,
my golden boy, I now miss.
His time had come,
he couldn't mend,
one last moment,
it was the end.
I only know we did our best,
but now our boy
just needs to rest.

(please don't rate or comment this post)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Look at me now!
I'm all grown up.
An excitable boy,
a jumping pup.
But see me now,
as I see you.
My hearts on fire,
for the boy I knew.
I saw your glance,
that sideways look.
I saw by chance,
your look retook.
You saw me then,
as I see you.
Your second glance,
showed love, it's true.
So look at me now,
a boy no more.
You know you want
my love, amour.

Pic: Alex Pettyfer, all grown up.

Pissed Off !! haha

"I'm so pissed off...

that if I thought I didn't have to pay for it....

I'd be breaking shit right now"


Hells Kitchen,
quote of the year.

Monday, June 14, 2010


I stand alone, a turpid scene.
The sound of silence, it makes me scream.

I feel the wind, the salt, the sea.
I feel the sun, it's burning me.

The golden orb, it burns so bright.
The sky lit orange, through the night.

I can not stand, to see the norm.
I feel missed out, my soul is worn.

So rescue me, and hold me tight.
Hold me fast throughout the night.

And when we wake and see the light,
be my savior and my respite.

Just don't leave me here alone,
my love is yours, my heart you own.

Sunday, June 13, 2010


I love playing Storm 8 games online:
  • Vampires (third favourite)
  • iMobsters
  • Ninjas (second favourite)
  • World War
  • Racing
  • Rockstars
  • Kingdoms
  • Zombies
  • Pets LIVE
  • Farm Story (favourite)
If you wanna team up
on your iPhone or iTouch
my Storm8 ID for invites is:

Friday, June 11, 2010

Blue Wall

I once ran out
of a sea blue wall,
It wasn't very hard at all.
I only had to wish it so;
my body formed,
my smile did grow.

I ran to you
with arms spread wide,
to the boy I love,
and I didn't hide,
the joy,
the love,
I felt inside,
my love for you,
not denied.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Uh Oh! Tented Pants!

You know that time, it happens lots,
so suddenly, it drives you nuts.
A casual glance, so happenstance,
your try to hide, your tented pants.

It's just not fair,
I wasn't thinking,
it just appeared, my heart is sinking.
So can't they see? Don't they know?
My pants explode, it starts to grow.

I must sit down,
and try to hide.
But what to do? I can't decide.
Perhaps if I just stare ahead,
and walk real fast and think of bed.

The nighttime comes,
I'm all alone,
I think of him, oh damn it's grown.
That's it, I know, I'll think of dirt,
uh oh, I feel, a little squirt.

Oh damn, it's just..

it's just not fair!
'Please beam me up',
I'll disappear.

Picture is Justin Bieber, exposed, haha.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Making Love

For me there is no
better thing,
than making love;
a mortal sin.

But love it be,
and not just sex.
Robotic coupling,
like insects.

I need to hold
your heart in mine,
as two linked lovers
we do entwine.

So hold me now
and share your soul
and lets make love
until we're old.

Learn the Betabet

A is for what?,
B is for bleh,
C is for yes and
D is for DUH or D'OH.
E is for getting high and
F is for swearing.
G is for amazement and
H is for rugby posts.
I is for me and
J is a dude I know.
K is alright and
M is half a bit of chocolate.
N is for the end,
O is for oh,
P is for pissing and
Q is for cute.
R is for pirates and
S is for sex.
T is for drinking and
U is for loving.
V is THE energy drink and
W is for lesbian sheep and
X is for for old lovers and
Y is to drive adults nuts and
Z is for sleeping!

And now I'm gonna learn to paint...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Mended Boy

Sometimes I feel
I stand apart,

a broken boy
with broken heart.

I watch the others
as they do dart,

and hear the joy
held in their laugh.

And when I laugh,
is it so?

A hearty sound?
Or does it show?

Or is it empty?
Sounds hollow?

I only wish to know.

I stand before
but stand apart.

Held together
by bits
and parts.

But whole do I
now come to start.

A mended boy
and mended heart.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

A Prince of Persia

Behold the Prince
of Europe born,

note the price
of charm returned.

Clever are
his wise spun words,
boyish are his acts,

Look to me
and you will see,

love of life
and thoughts carefree.

Busy is his life to be,

behold the Prince of Persia.