About this blog...

On this blog you will find the rambling thoughts and images a boy like me finds on the web. It is responses to my dilemma and experience. It's not rude or crude or stereotypical. Just me, just trying to be free, just learning to be myself...

Saturday, April 30, 2011


There is an angel watching over me;
he has been there for eternity;
he watches all and only dares to care. 
He is my light with sympathy;
he frees my mind with empathy;
the love he feels he only seeks to share. 
One day I will drift back to him;
the future as it's always been;
My soul restored and time to be as one.
Until that day he waits for me;
he lets me live completely free; 
But never again will leave our love undone. 


Thursday, April 28, 2011


Image not my dog but similar
What is life, when death lives on?
Our daily drudge, goes on and on.
We take for granted each day we see.
I took for granted you and me. 
And now you've gone, my heart has burst. 
To think of you, it only hurts. 
I can't believe, that full of life. 
It ended so soon, with so much strife.
If I had been there, at the end. 
Your broken life, I could have mend. 
I blame myself, you've gone away.
I hate my life. I hate that day.
But I'll think of you, with only love. 
Until we join, in lands above. 
So run and play, my boyhood friend. 
We'll be together, in the end.

Mitch Hewer ~ Soccerboy

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Monday, April 25, 2011

In silver light, their masks delight, they hide behind their veil. 
They spin such lucid tales, of lust they do avail. 
They compliment and flirt and fly to sow the seeds of desire, 
but quickly do their long spun tales drift unto the mire. 

So happy thoughts and caution taught, I explore this world of theirs. 
I now know how to hold it back, my inner-self not shared. 
But keep these imps at distance, and keep behind the line;
and we will see if love does hold given nothing more than time.


Friday, April 22, 2011

You Can Not Get To Know Me

You can not understand me. You can not get to know. 
You can not start to feel me. Unless you see the show.
It started in a far off place. My mind it drifted far. 
I left the dark behind me. I headed for a star. 

I spent my time there gazing, at all the pretty lights. 
I tried to think of happy thoughts, as he beat me through the night.
And when the sun returned, I found myself alone. 
I left the stars behind me and I returned to home. 

So if you come to see me, and if I'm not quite there. 
It's because I am in heaven, hiding from my fear.


Thursday, April 21, 2011

Don't be chicken

Hey you, ya you.. come over here, I wanna show you something..D


If I took a cup of perfect 
and added a touch of spice. 
If measured out some meanness 
and just a dash of nice. 
If I took a pinch of shyness 
and a pound of lust or three. 
Would you spend a day just teasing 
then stay for eternity?


Friday, April 15, 2011


Am I perfect?
Or good enough?
Like me this way?
Like it rough?

Want me naked?
Within your web?
Push me down, 
upon the bed. 

Keep me kicking 
round the house. 
Treat me badly, 
I'll be a mouse. 

But do ignore 
and fear my rage. 
I will erupt, 
this mortal cage.


Thursday, April 14, 2011

Rasmus Ledin - my straight boyfriend
Beauty is a stolen look, 
a backward glance, 
a glimpse I took. 

Love is free, 
upon the air. 
As if by chance,
I would dare. 

I walked behind 
and came so close. 
A gentle brush, 
my overdose. 

Heaven scent, 
my thoughts to me. 
To be so close, 
your energy. 

Friction builds, 
I want to touch. 
Your very presence, 
I love so much. 

You share my sphere, 
my wonder world. 
If you were boy, 
and I was girl. 

I know that we 
would be as one. 
But as we are, 
our love undone. 

But I can dream 
of you instead. 
My straight boyfriend, 
in my bed.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My lover...

My lover...

take my hand
of wet
surf sand
and hold
me tight
at last.

Keep a grip
don't let me slip
firm within
your grasp.

Keep me safe
from all
that try. 
Keep me
close to you.

Be my shield
and be my world
and I'll
be that
to you.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The Wind

If I could dance, 
if I could sing, 
I would take flight, 
upon the wind.

I would soar high, 
unto the sky, 
and there I'd stay, 
with you in mind. 

If I could be 
with you today, 
I would take chance 
and heaven pray. 

For you to me 
are everything. 
As I take flight 
upon the wind.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Share Me

There is a part of ME that shines
It shines so bright, it is divine
Divine enough for all the world to see.

See the part of me beneath
Beneath the covers I retreat
Retreat and you will see what I bequeath. 

There is a part of me I dare
I dare because I really care
Care enough and you will come to share

Share the part of me to see
See me now and set me free
Free to love who I desire, I'm ME.


Tuesday, April 5, 2011

A Year

As summer ends
and fades the day, 
I glance aback 
to yesterday. 
I think of us 
and what we mean 
to me.

As Autumn dawns 
and leaves do drop, 
our past reserved 
but not forgot. 
I think of us 
and what we still 
could be. 

As Winters chill 
begins its yawn, 
a frosty start, 
a chilly dawn. 
I think of us 
and what is planned 
you see.

As Spring does burst 
from shattered night, 
the birds aloft 
in scattered flight, 
but home to roost
you come, 
our destiny.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Falling Down

Falling up, falling down,
falling in and around.
Touch the sky, learn to fly, 
never touch the ground.

Falling you, falling me,
live my life, happily. 
All I want 
is for us, to be.

Fool me once, fool me twice, 
share my love, share my vice.
We can be, so happy, I adore.

Take my hand, hold it tight, 
kiss me slowly, through the night.
Be with me, be my love, some more.

Saturday, April 2, 2011


oh what a day,
I wake up in the morn.
Sports today,
time to play,
my muscles to be worn.

Comes the night,
darkened lights,
time to share my love.
Party sounds,
stir the hounds,
my loins allowing of.

Restless times,
steady rhymes,
I listen to the beat.
Heady noise,
with the boys,
Dancing off my feet.

Comes at last, 
my repast, 
warm his cold embrace.
Frantic hands, 
lust abounds, 
then gone without a trace.

Ulrik Munther ~ LIFE