Sometimes

~

Sometimes it's time to come, 

sometimes it's time to go.

Sometimes it's time to leave, 

before we get to know;

If what we have in common,

is only just for show.

Or if we have something more. 

We will never know.

~

Introspective

I believe in summer days, 

in puppy dogs with wagging tales. 

I believe the sun will rise, 

my love will grow, you'll be surprised. 

I believe in love at first sight, 

in holding hope, throughout the night. 

I believe that you and I, 

will be as one, 'til the day we die. 

I don't believe in papal lore, 

in ancient myths and hate or war. 

If God exists, and he just might, 

then he will love, what is right. 

He made me as I really am, 

to be myself, to be a man. 

To love with all my energy

To love a boy, to be just me.

Life Undone

Traumatised and

brutalised.

Once despised,

immortalized.

Never cries,

never tries,

undone.

Tried disguise,

pretty eyes,

still chastised,

then deprived.

Once surprised,

death defied,

he's gone.

Bounced right back,

kept on track,

twisted wrack,

rebounded smack.

Fight right back,

quick come back,

he won.

Life is not

a pretty game,

never won,

never tame.

Make the most,

drop the ghost,

have fun.

Share Me

There is a part of ME that shines. 

It shines so bright, it is divine. 

Divine enough for all the world to see.

See the part of me beneath. 

Beneath the covers I retreat. 

Retreat and you will see what I bequeath. 

There is a part of me I dare. 

I dare because I really care. 

Care enough and you will come to share. 

Share the part of me to see. 

See me now and set me free. 

Free to love who I desire, I'm ME.

~

A Year

As summer ends

and fades the day, 

I glance aback 

to yesterday. 

I think of us 

and what we mean 

to me.

As Autumn dawns 

and leaves do drop, 

our past reserved 

but not forgot. 

I think of us 

and what we still 

could be. 

As Winters chill 

begins its yawn, 

a frosty start, 

a chilly dawn. 

I think of us 

and what is planned 

you see.

As Spring does burst 

from shattered night, 

the birds aloft 

in scattered flight, 

but home to roost

you come, 

our destiny.

Falling Down

Falling up, falling down,

falling in and around.

Touch the sky, learn to fly, 

never touch the ground.

Falling you, falling me,

live my life, happily. 

All I want 

is for us, to be.

Fool me once, fool me twice, 

share my love, share my vice.

We can be, so happy, I adore.

Take my hand, hold it tight, 

kiss me slowly, through the night.

Be with me, be my love, some more.

When I think of You

When I think of You

If I thought of what you meant to me,

I would only think of smiles.

If I thought of all our memories,

it would take quite a while.

If I thought of the love I hold for you,

I would only break my heart.

For if I try to recall a thing,

it means that we're apart.

But when I lie right next to you,

I think of no such things.

I only feel, I only trust

My heart, my love, my sin.

My Salvation

A single drop, it forms on skin,

of my perspiration.

A single thought, it forms akin,

as of my own creation.

A single voice, as if by choice, 

I file on this occasion. 

Accept me, or let me free, 

I ask of this nation.

Do not hem or still this tide, 

I only want my nature. 

To be with, whom I deserve,

on this occasion. 

I fancy not the juggernaut, 

of 2.3 creations. 

I only want, the one I love, 

and I will find salvation.

Let me be. Let me love. Let me be loved.

Banana Boy

Look at me! I'm so free!

I bounce across the floor. 

I'm upside down! I spin around!

Then I bounce out the door.

I'm carefree! You don't scare me!

So take away the drama. 

But be nice, and throw in spice

and I'll show you my banana.

Is this you? Is this Me?

That is you, this is me.

Forever young, forever free.

Trapped in time, we hold this space.

A symptom of the human race. 

A simple spec, on data trails.

Did we exist? Were we so frail?

I looked across a crowded room 

and saw my love that night.
My breath it stopped, my heart it popped, 

my chest became so tight.
I knew that I, had found at once, 

my other half indeed.
I only hoped, that they would dare, 

and fall in love with me.

And when I glanced, as if by chance, 

my mind went blank indeed.
My smile returned, my soul it yearned, 

my love sent back to me.
So from that day, come what may, 

I knew that love was true.
I knew the we, would forever be, 

you and me, 

we two.

I am your Golden BOY!

I am your Golden BOY!

I set my heart in wheaten field, my resolve drew me on. 

I fancied dreams of flight reborn, as I walked along. 

I could not dream of our embrace without your warming touch.
I have to say how much I miss, I love you oh so much. 

When you're away my thoughts do fly, I dream my golden boy.

Of happiness and warming smiles, my life so full of joy.

When we walk on, hand in hand the world does stop and stare. 

They think these boys, gone wild, are mad, I hope they lose that fear. 

For what scares them is love unbound and daring to be free. 

They see our love, they see us two, they see that we are free. 

Two boys in love, two boys in hand, two boys together as one.

Their looks of shame and wanton blame will never make undone. 

For what do we care of them, their sad and lonely lives. 

When all we see is rainbows, through our own loving eyes. 

So come back soon and be with me and share my bed again. 

And we will be, forever free, our love will bear no shame.

This week my other half is in Paris. Leading a life so different to my own reality that when he comes back to me it feels as if a dream. But he comes back to me, always to me. And I will always be here for him or go with him. For eternity. This blog is for him, to him, about me and him. I love you babe. Beijos

I swear

Is it me, or is it you? The things we say? The things we do?

You know the way, that I always, think of you.

Is it us? They way we trust? The way we love? And love we must?

You know the love, that we share, we two.

You are the boy, who I adore. I can only, love you more. 

Your eyes draw, me deep, into your soul. 

Only time, will ever tell, if we are right, and right to sell,

to each other, the love, we must share.

I'd only die, if I could not, be with you, the one I love, 

I trust to you, my slender love, I swear.

All I want

I look away when I feel you watching,
a dream state enters my being.
Your thoughts pervade my soul
and I feel exposed.
Your thoughts are seeking.
I know what you are thinking.

All I want to do is hide.
Not get close.
I feel so betrayed by my being.
Scared thoughts thrive,
I hope you don't believe I am here.
I'm not!
I'm running scared.

All I want is to say hello,
to chat once in a while,
to know
that I am not alone.
Please don't ask too much of me,
I can't handle this pressure
I'm not who you think I am,
I am small and unreal.

I write well,
talk smart
and lack the ability to do anything.
My inexperience drowns me.
I am just one boy,
being.
I am learning so much,
fearing so much more.
Give me space,
give me time,
I ask for no more.

All I want is understanding.

~ Marcus

(this poem reflects a change of style as I try and escape the web I have created on the internet. I had no idea it would be like this. With so many people needing so much from me. I don't understand. I'm just a boy, growing, wanting, to be a man.)

Who am I ?

Who am I???

I am me.

What you see...

is what I be. 

I show no more...

than just my self. 

I sit upon...

your i-shelf. 

I am a boy...

and no more. 

The boy you love.

I love you more.

You and Me will Bee

I look around

and what do I see?

I see you, 

I see me.

I wonder if 

it will ever be. 

Me with you, 

you with me. 

How could it be, 

how could we be? 

Me without you?

You without me?

For now we know, 

and now we see. 

Together we be, 

for eternity.

Our life will be, 

not normal see?
But you and me, 

will always be.

summer and winter

Look at me.., 

as I fly. 

The summer bird, 

in winter's sky. 

But I am still.

Earth falls away. 

My fears, my love, 

they do stay.

The ground leaves me, 

I am reborn. 

The summer wind, 

the winter storm. 

But if you catch 

me in the air. 

You'll save my soul 

and quench my fear. 

So hold me tight, 

and don't let go. 

The summer sand, 

the winter snow.

My One True Love from Above

I lay by your side, your thoughts you can't hide, 

I can tell by the curl of your lip. 

Your eyes flutter more and your dreams they do soar. 

Your secrets let loose, they slip.

Your chest as it moans, your body does groan

I rest my hand loose on your side. 

Secrets unfold, tales that are told, 

all that shall be, shall not hide. 

You stir in your sleep, your hand it does sweep 

and covers mine, warm to my touch. 

Your love to me, is sweet ecstasy 

as I think how I love you so much. 

Your eyes open wide, your thoughts they do fly 

as I kiss you awake from above.

I cannot mistake, the love as it aches, 

my baby, my boy, my love.

Desire

A year has gone, I won't look back. 

I feel my soul renewed. 

I lay exposed upon this shore, 

my heart is open wide.

I only want to be with you, 

to feel my other half. 

To feel the warmth from your breath, 

to hear your gentle laugh.

The smile that twists your upper lip, 

the eyes that shine for me. 

For you and I will always be, 

we are our destiny.

I see you

I look away when you come near,

I want to feel you come. 

A gentle air does gentle wave,

my skin begins to burn. 

You softly breathing I do hear, 

you are my only one. 

I try to be so very brave, 

My thoughts become undone. 

I feel your head bend down to me, 

a kiss upon my neck. 

My hands take on a life of their own, 

my fingers they do stretch. 

I stroke the arms that hold me so, 

I feel the warmth in you. 

Your deep brown eyes, they smile at me, 

I see the soul I knew.