I see you

I look away when you come near,

I want to feel you come. 

A gentle air does gentle wave,

my skin begins to burn. 

You softly breathing I do hear, 

you are my only one. 

I try to be so very brave, 

My thoughts become undone. 

I feel your head bend down to me, 

a kiss upon my neck. 

My hands take on a life of their own, 

my fingers they do stretch. 

I stroke the arms that hold me so, 

I feel the warmth in you. 

Your deep brown eyes, they smile at me, 

I see the soul I knew.

Feel me

See me here,

feel me now.

Wish me luck,

don't know how.

I am such a lucky boy,

happy, loving, full of joy. 

Life for me is on the beach, 

my love entwined within my reach. 

Golden sands and lapping waves, 

the breathless sun, my hopes are brave. 

I live my life just how I please, 

the drooping clouds blown off by breeze.

See me now as ne'er before, 

I have my life... to explore.

So see me leave, 

see me go. 

When I return, 

please say hello.

~

Drifting On

And in the sun, 

beside the sea, 

my thoughts drift on, 

from you to me. 

I wonder if 

one day we'll be, 

together 

once again.

And in the dawn, 

a stifled yawn, 

I rise 

from nightly rest. 

A hand glides down 

from shoulder blade 

and slips 

across my chest. 

I know those fingers, 

I feel that touch, 

I kiss

the warmth 

in you. 

I always knew 

you would return, 

and we 

would be 

as two.

Bird

I once saw a bird 

that sat in my tree. 

He sang me such songs, 

a sweet melody. 

He was put in a cage, 

which upset me; 

so I broke down the door 

and set that bird free.

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Is it just me? Please set me free. I ache to get away. 

I feel constrained, so wholly reigned. I do so want to play. 

I swell with love, I bust with lust, I need to have my way. 

So set me free, and we shall see. It's time to run and play. 

No Words

To know me well

is to know me more,

my words and charms

will never bore.

There is no chance

that I shall speak,

it's not because

I'm mild or meek.

For when you wait

for me to say,

my words they just

do go away.

My tounge swells up,

my teeth are clenched

and not one word

shall be wrenched.

It's not because

I can't so speak,

it is because

my words don't meet.

The selective mute,

he is so cute,

he listens very well.

But if you wait

for words to come,

time will never tell.

Angst

I stood upon 

a white sand beach, 

I gazed at waves 

beyond my reach, 

I dreamed across

the ocean depth 

beyond. 

I waited for 

that very day, 

when I could take 

your hand and lay 

my head upon 

your chest 

once more. 

The simple things 

I like the most, 

the chance to hear 

your heart beat lost, 

My heart 

will once more 

be belonged. 

For you to me 

are everything, 

you make my soul 

begin to sing, 

together our love ... 

we will explore.

Who is he?

I am a crazy guy,

you see?

So deep and full 

of mystery. 

I like to hang 

and dance about. 

I like to scream 

and laugh and shout. 

But if you ask me 

what's inside.

My heart, my love, 

I try to hide. 

You only see 

the bouncing boy. 

So happy, 

laughing, 

full of joy. 
For if you saw 
my inner soul. 
All would be gone, 
all would be told. 
So best I keep 
myself to me. 
And keep you guessing, 
who is he?

And so it goes...

They come and go like fallen snow, 

   so light and soft to touch. 

You hardly notice them appear, 

   and miss them oh so much. 

The ones you loves, the ones you know 

   are here for now then gone. 

If only I had spent more time 

   so they would stay more long. 

So spare your tears and wipe your eyes 

   and wait for more to come. 

And pretty soon they reappear. 

   No friendship comes undone.

Steady Beating

A special look, not one mistook, you know what I am thinking. 

My pulse is raised, a steady beat, my heart is steady beating.

I feel the kindred of our souls, I'm glad of this meeting. 

So come on close, don't be morose, and give to me your greeting. 

So lift my hand, and take me up, and hold me in your arms. 

Whisper, smile, stroke, beguile, warm me with your charms.

I knew at once, when we first met, that we would be forever.

I had no doubt, that even without, our love would grow together. 

Just look at me, and can't you see, the love that we once knew?

I am your boy, you are my joy, our love just grew and grew.

~ ~ ~

Can you see me?

 
Can you see me?

Am I cute?

I'm a boy 

of ill repute.

I will try 

most anything. 

Here's my number, 

make it ring.

Take a chance

and contact me.

I'll bare my soul 

and set you free.

Please don't wait

and mullify, 

'cause while you do...

I might die.

I am not a fool

You mean me? It couldn't be. I just got out of school. 

I will do, what I want. I'll break every rule. 

Sneer at me, I'll sneer right back. I'm so super cool.

Treat me right, or say goodbye. I am not a fool. 

~ ~ ~

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I knew him well,
I love him still,
I don't know 
what to do. 


Suddenly 
he disappeared, 
right out of the blue. 

I tried to see 
if I could ask, 
my messages 
hit a wall. 
My friend was gone, 
his lasting song, 
I feel so lost, 
... so small. 


I missed my chance 
to reach him back, 
gone before I tried. 
His parting words 
did confuse me so, 
my heart has partly died. 


So please come back, 
our loving friend. 
Let not this be the end. 

There's nothing done, 
our friendship can't, 
easily, 
hopefully 
mend.

The Sun, the moon, the earth, the sea ...

He is the sun...

... I am his moon. 

A golden ball...

... a silver spoon. 

A love not lost ...

... it came so soon. 

My heart is healed... 

... within there's room. 

So take my hand

and laugh with me.

You are the earth ... 

... I am your sea. 

~

My love

As summer goes, who really knows?

.... life just keeps getting better

I live my life, free of strife,

I am a life 'go getter'.

I dream of boys and summer joys,

my life it hold no bounds

I sweat under, the spring summer

and yearn for lovers sounds.

A pebble beach, beyond my reach,

I miss that last hand hold.

The last we kissed, that day I miss

I will, one day, be whole.

I miss you so very, very much.
You are my other half.
Without you I can not laugh.
F*ck this, marry me.

Beijos

You only get 

a glimpse

of me, 

the world stands by 

and waits to see. 

More there is 

but not on show, 

I told you what 

there is to know. 

For if I shared 

'all of me',

there would be 

no 'mystery'. 

And what 

you really 

thought of me,

would all 

be gone,

an 

empty dream.

But suddenly 

I'm back 

to peek, 

there's more 

to see, 

more to seek. 

Playing around

Up, 

down, 

spin 

around, 

jumped 

so fast 

my pants 

fell down. 

I was 

lucky 

you 

weren't 

here, 

pants 

and all, 

my soul 
to bare.

I've been thinking...

~

I was thinking of you, thinking of me.

Thinking about, what could have been. 

Thinking that life, is not all it seems. 

Thinking of thoughts, that lie within me.

Thoughts they do wander, making a scene. 

Drifting so slowly, as if in a dream. 

Nothing in life, is quite what it seems, 

I'm thinking of you, thinking of me.

A dream like state of mind ...

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I am not, who you want me to be, 
I am only me, you see? 
I am not, in a dream 
and more real, or so it seems. 

So please just let me be me. 


I share with those, that I like, 
a little more, of my life. 
But please, I do implore, 
please don't ask for any more, 

I feel carved up with a knife. 

I put my feelings, out on show, 
but only with those I know.
Will I ever lay bare, 
the things I guard fair?

Or let you into my life?


So please understand, 
As I turn into a man.  
I need to hold back 
and cover the cracks;

or be undone ... and disband.

A boy in a tree..

River Delphi Viiperi ~ WOOF!

I saw a boy, 

up in a tree. 

I wondered if 

that boy was me. 

The way he smiled, 

and just beguiled. 

I knew he knew, 

the inner me. 

His smile lit up, 

my inner heart. 

A smile that I 

could tell apart. 

That smile was mine 

and mine for him. 

I knew that boy, 

from within.

Wake Up!

Tired, asleep but not alone. 

You shared my life and I have grown.  

Beneath the covers we shared our life...

Dude! Wake up! And be my wife!

A taste of me...

They all want a taste of me, 

even tho there's one of me. 

Taste by taste I really start to fear.

Slowly as they grab at me, 

piece by piece, I'm losing me. 

What they want they just so slightly tear.

I am just... only one, 

gently as I come undone, 

none of me, soon, will appear. 

Just say hello and do not tie, 

gently as you come on by, 

let me breathe or see me disappear.

Do not judge or criticise, 

hold your views behind your eyes, 

smile softly as you pass me by. 

Caught within this new found art, 

slowly taken, part by part, 

Now I know why others try and hide.

~

"I'm not a label, I'm just me, 

and I don't owe the world an explanation."

~

Oh My!

I just had the shock of my life. To post a comment in YouTube I had to type in one of those words. This was it:

I'll leave any interpretation up to you, haha.

Gentle friends

Jake

You meet them 

once 

or twice,

you know.

Your 

new found 

friends, 

they come 

and go. 

You wonder 

why

their light 

did glow... 

Your 

new found 

friends, 

where did 

they 

go?

So suddenly 

they disappear. 

You wonder if 

they're ever there. 

Their light 

so sudden, 

sweet and brief, 

their gentle parting 

without grief.

Where did they go?

The Look

There is a look, 

a secret glance, 

the gay male stare. 

Not in a book, 

not made by chance, 

the soul is laid quite bare. 

The hunger shows, 

the body aches, 

the desire is left aloof. 

The receiver knows, 

feelings wake, 

lust is set loose.

I see the signs, 

I respond in kind, 

I set my passion free.

So if you find, 

you have the time, 

Send that look to me.

18 - Boy Soldier

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Eighteen is such a funny age, 

you leave your youth, the adult stage. 

For now I can stand up as me, 

I am grown up, let me be. 

But do I want to be set free? 

The scary responsibility? 

The broken opportunity? 

To be alone, to just be me? 

No give me back my feathered nest 

and let me grow, to be my best. 

Just gentle steps, do forward go 

supported by, the love I know.

Don't Act Dumb

Am I smart 

or am I dumb? 

With idiots 

I play along. 

If they talk... 

'incomplete',

their written style 

I do meet. 

If they show 

they are smart,

I use my words 

as I do art. 

I like to show 

that I care

and take the time 

to write; 

repaired. 

But do not take me 

for a fool, 

I love to learn, 

in my school, 

of worldly life

and heartfelt thoughts, 

my mind, 

my style 

are all 

self-taught.

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By chance alone did we meet, 

his soul exposed, laid bare, replete. 

This boy did give himself to us, 

his heart, his soul, his gentle trust. 

He cared enough to share his life, 

his mortal coil, his endless strife. 

He was for us the same as we. 

I miss him more than I miss me.
~

We miss you Derek

The Shallow Man

The shallow man he stands side on, 

he disappears and then he's gone. 

His false facade and gentle lies, 

come to me as no surprise. 

His thin veneer is so see through, 

his awkward smile is one I knew. 

He thinks the web he spins does shine 

and all the time we know he's lying. 

With painted spots and silver stripes 

he tries to dazzle with delight. 

But comes the morn' and golden sun, 

his lies, his tales, 

they come undone.

The End of the World

There are those who try to bring you down, 

safe beside, as they sit on the ground. 

They hate to see you float carefree, 

the love you share they destroy with glee. 

As you rise above and seem so light, 

it gives their souls an enormous fright,

for what if you, not they, are right,

their world of hate 

would end this night.

Singing with Frogs

I say what. What?

What. What?

What. Whaddya say?

I say what. What?

What. What?

What. Whaddya say?

I say what. What?

What. What?

What. Whaddya say?

I say what are you saying?

What do you say?

I say what. What?

What. What?

No, what do you say?

I say what. What?

What. What?

What do you say?

I say what. What?

What. What?

No, what are you saying?

What do you say?

What? 

To Surf

Dedicated to Leif

A simple love, 

the sky above, 

a board 

beneath 

my feet. 

I spend 

the day, 

all at sea, 

the salt 

that burns 

my cheeks. 

The steady throb, 

an endless tide, 

my hopes 

and dreams 

do soar. 

The sea, 

the sun, 

the salt, 

the surf... 

just me 

and 

the board.

A simple love..

I am still yet,

a simple boy. 

A simple view,

and simple joys. 

I put away 
all childish toys. 

My life is one,

just to enjoy. 

And then I found ,

my first born love. 

My empty soul,

it rose above. 

And in that time,

I did find 

a very... simple... love. 

If I could be...

If I could be 

so carefree 

as to live 

without 

my fear. 

Then I would be,

wandering free?

The Kodiak 

Grizzly 

Bear. 

His mighty frame

is held 

in awe. 

His golden coat..

his challenged

roar. 

If I could be 

anyone 

but me. 

Would 

anybody 

care?

Bouncing

Bouncing up.

Bouncing down.

Bouncing wild.

Bouncing round.

Look at me 

the bouncing boy.

Happy, lucky, 

bouncing joy.

All the time 

I've been so still.

Should have been 

bouncing 'til..

all the world 

was bouncing free. 

Bouncing round,

bouncing me.

There was a boy

There was a boy
no one adored,
we only chanced
to see him more.
His golden hair
did softly shine,
his sparkling eyes
did spark, divine.
His lips did move
without a sound,
his smile downcast
as he looked around.
He looked about,
a distant gaze,
he wasn't really here,
a haze.
You saw the shell,
his arms afold.
An inner secret,
never told.
This boy was brighter
than the sun,
his hopes,
his dreams,
his love undone.
Trapped within
a cloistered cell,
his family life
a living hell.
He only hoped
to one day leave,
he didn't speak,
he barely breathed.

Judge me not

IF I was gay, would I be queer? 
My rough and tumble disappear?
Would I then have to act this way?
So soft and silken smooth, to sway?

I fear that type is just not me, 
I am a boy and tough you see. 
I do not act in any way,
I play my sport and I do play 
at being me 
and nothing else.
So judge me not, 

or judge 

yourself.

The only thing...

The only thing that lets you know you are alive..., is pain

The only thing that makes life worth living..., is love

The only thing that lets you recover from lost love..., is hope

The only thing that mellows a broken heart..., is time

The only thing that carries us forward..., are friends

I love you my friend